taho

may gulaman ang taho sa davao, sa bandang west minda pwede mo naman itong palagyan ng gatas sa nagtitinda.

the petronas

filipinovelas

i saw pinoy faces at the tv monitor of a video store inside a mall in petaling jaya. not pinoy looking faces but definitely pinoy faces.

it wast the most curious thing, in front of posters of malaysian movie and pop stars was this footage of nestor de villa eating a mango. what surprised me more after entereing the store was the number of pinoy dvd movies in the store, and more curiously that it was of the kristine hermosa - jerico rosales variety.

turned out that pinoy soap is a big hit in malaysia, especially 'sana'y wala nang wakas'. it's being shown on free tv and has a regular following. it's not dubbed though but they use subtitles instead.

what struck me was that i don't remember having seen any malaysian movie, not even in asian film festivals, and that i don't think i'll ever see any malaysian soap played in a pinoy video store.

i mused over this in between swigs of guinness, sometimes i'd return to the drone conversation- IT use by advocacy groups - then slide back to thoughts of asian cinema and tv again, went back....nope... haven't seen any malaysian film.

'the pillow book' at the UP film center ... must!

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the ties that bind

anak ni mistique si nightcrawler at naging foster mother ni rogue, x-men pareho sila nightcrawler at rogue habang nakahanay kay magneto si mistique.

anak naman ni magneto si quicksilver at si scarlet witch na mga miyembro ng avengers. asawa ni scarlet witch si vision na kasama niya sa avengers.

si vision ay ginawa ng kalabang robot ng avengers na si ultron. si ultron naman ay likha ni hank pym na miyembro ng avengers bilang ant-man at giant-man.

do i move you

hindi ko napakilala sa yo si nina simone ano siya yong kinukwento ni julie delpy sa last scene ng before sunset yong ginagaya niyang kumanta ng naglalakad at nagyoyosi habang kausap ang audience

I get along without you very well
Of course, I do
Except when soft rains fall
And drip from leaves then I recall
The thrill of being sheltered
In your arms
Of course, I do
But I get along without you very well

matagal tagal yong conversation na yon pero sa totoo lang isa lang ang kanta ni nina simone sa before sunset eh

I wish I could share
All the love that’s in my heart

ginagaya ni julie si nina simone nuong matanda na sa france kung san siya tumira pagkatapos niyang nilayasan ang estados unidos dahil di na kumportable ang mga kinakanta niya para sa mga puti don nagiging parang anthem daw ng black panther ang mga kanta niya

My father was rich and white
He forced my mother late one night
What do they call me
My name is siffronia
My skin is brown
And my manner is tough
I’ll kill the first mother I see
Cos my life has been too rough
I’m awfully bitter these days
Because my parents were slaves
What do they call me
My Name Is Peaches

kahit kantang pangbroadway di mo alam kung malulungkot ka, maiinlab, o magagalit kapag siya na ang kumanta

I loves you, porgy,
Don’t let him take me
Don’t let him handle me
With his hot hands
And drive me mad
If you can keep me
I wanna stay here with you forever
I’ve got my man
Someday I know he’s coming to call me
He’s going to handle me and hold me
So, it’ going to be like dying, porgy
When he calls me
But when he comes I know I’ll have to go

me eksena din don sa palabas ni bridget fonda na the assassin nung naghiwalay sila ni gabriel byrne at sinigurado niya na sa kanya mapupunta ang plaka ni nina simone

So black is the color of my true love’s hair
Black is the color of my true love’s hair

ngayon kinakategorya ang cds niya sa jazz pero hindi naman talaga me mga albums nga siya ng pop standards ne merong my baby just cares for me na sumikat ulit nitong nakaraang dekada dahil ginamit sa isang commercial pero hindi din lang ganon ang kinanta niya

When I touch you do you quiver
From your head down to your liver
If you like it let me know it
Don't be psychic or you'll blow it
The answer better be (Yes, yes)
That pleases me

dahil sa distinct style at delivery niya akala mo puro original ang mga kanta niya pero marami ay cover songs pero super version niya kaya di mo halos makilala sabi nga niya oh to be young gifted and black

If morning echo says we've sinned
Well, it was what I wanted anyhow
And if we're the victims of the night
I promise you I won't be blinded by light
There is no need to take me home
I'm old enough to face the dawn
Just call me angel of the morning
Just touch my cheek before you leave me baby

mukhang paborito din niyang i-cover si bob dylan e siyempre late 60s early 70s non pero di na folksie ang tunog kapag rendition na ni nina

They say everything can be replaced
Yet every distance is not near
So I remember every face
Of every man who put me here
I see the light come shining
From the west unto the east
Any day now any day now
I shall be released

pati blues mhen ang galing niya mag blues kahit kantang hindi 12 bar na I-IV-V progression ay kaya nyang gawing blues

I put a spell on you’
cause you’re mine
You better stop the things you do
I ain’t lyin’ No I ain’t lyin’
You know I can’t stand it
You’re runnin’ around
You know better daddy
I can’t stand it cause you put me down

yon ang lawak ng catalogue niya kaya kapag nagbasa tungkol sa female jazz vocalists ay minor lang ang listing niya kesa kina ella, billie o sara pero sa totoo lang mhen siya ang pinaka-magaling kumanta sa lahat ng mga yon paniwalaan mo ako kahit hindi ko napakilala sa yo si nina simone

Baby, can you understand me now
Sometimes I feel a little mad
Don't you know that no one alive can always be an angel
When things go rough I feel real bad
I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Baby, sometimes I'm so carefree
With a joy that's hard to hide
And othertimes it seems that, all I have to do is worry
And then I know you're bound to see my other side
I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
If I seem edgy, I want you to know
That I never mean to take it out on you
Life has its problems and I get my share
But that's one thing that I would never do'
cos I love you
Oh... Don't you know I'm human
I got my faults like any other one
Sometimes I find myself, Lord, regreting
Some foolish thing - some simple thing I've done
But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh lord, please don't let me be misunderstood

the tipping point

huwag sumubok sumakay ng MRT ng may dalang kahit anong de-lata

charles baudelaire

Get drunk! One should always be drunk. That's all that matters;that's our one imperative need. So as not to feel Time's horrible burden one which breaks your shoulders and bows you down, you must get drunk without cease. But with what? With wine, poetry, or virtue as you choose. But get drunk.

from Be Drunk

And softly she decended her staircase of clouds and, noislessly, passed through the window-panes. Then she stretched herself out over you with the supple tenderness of a mother, and laid down her colors on your face. Ever since, the pupils of your eyes have remained green and your cheeks unusually pale. It was while comtemplating this visitor that your eyes became so strangely enlarged; and she clasped your neck so tenderly that you have retained for ever the desire to weep.

from The Favours of the Moon

cable guy

bakit regular na ang pag-mimisa sa loob ng mall kapag sunday? ok lang ba sa kanila kung mag ukay-ukay naman sa loob ng simbahan kapag monday to saturday?

pre-game and watch

non-electronic mind puzzle that drove me nuts!

maxi

nanalo ang "pagdadalaga ni maximo oliveros" sa montreal filmfest!! yey!!!!
yey din kila pepe, mike at bayang!!!!

'Maximo' to the max in Montreal
Sept 08, 2005 Updated 05:44pm (Mla time) Raymond Lee Inquirer News Service

(Inquirer Entertainment received this euphoric letter on Sept. 6, 10 p.m. Manila ime, from Raymond Lee, line producer of "Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros [The blossoming of Maximo Oliveros]."

MONTREAL--We won! Twelve hours ago at the closing ceremonies of the 29th Montreal World Film Festival, our little movie was proclaimed winner of the Golden Zenith award for Best First Fiction Feature.

The jury, composed of Godfrey Cheshire (United States), Loic Magneron (France) and Paul Toutant (Canada) announced the prize, saying: "For its impressive quasi-documentary style and its spirit of humanity and tolerance, the jury unanimously awards the Golden Zenith to "The Blossoming of Maximo Oliveros" from the Philippines."

They also said they were bowled over by the music. They kept asking about Pepe Smith (musical scorer), Mike Villegas (who wrote the love theme) and Bayang Barrios (who sang the love theme).

pilmpes

ayi and i saw three excellent films last weekend. puro festival films. the first one was part of the belgian filmfest in megamall, ma vie en rose (my life in pink), which i had already seen sa isang european filmfest before.

it's a gift din pala to be forgetful kasi i get to enjoy books and films several times over. kaya, i again enjoyed the story of seven year old girl-boy ludovic who claims to have been given a y chromosome at birth by mistake. hats off to georges du fresne who was a natural as ludovic fabre.

i told ayi that the indie film mga pusang gala which was shown at the pink filmfest earlier this year has been released commercially and was actually being shown na sa gateway. speaking of indie films, ayi said she wanted to see ang pagdadalaga ni maximo oliveros which was previewed in the tv ad of the recently concluded cinemalaya independent film festival.

buti na lang, i was reading the news dun sa coffee shop sa araneta while ayi was reading neil gaiman's coraline, there were three screenings pala of ang pagdadalaga ni maxi that day at the UP film center and we still had time to catch the last one at 7:30. special screening daw to support the film in its participation sa film festival in montreal, pakiramdam ko special screening para sa amin ni ayi.

she was thrilled pink pa kasi she got our pagdadalaga ni maxi postcards signed by nathan lopez who was given a 'Special Citation for Best Performance by an Actor' at the cinemalaya awards night for his performance as maximo oliveros. The whole cast was actually good, kahit si pepe smith, even if it's second nature na siguro for him to portray an old drunk. Great story by michiko yamamoto who wrote magnifico which is now added to my list of must check out films.

the next day, we completed our own mini pink filmfest weekend by seeing mga pusang gala sa gateway mall. we progressed from 7 year old girl-boy ludo to 12 year old queer maiden maxi and then finally to gay mang boyet portrayed by ricky davao. superb acting din in this film, especially by irma adlawon who played marta, boyet's neighbor. the storyline of pagdadalaga is definitely superior but watching mga pusang gala made me start to want to try to think to want to start to try to write a story for film, again. it's that good.

the best part of that weekend...was that i spent it with ayi.

powerbooks sale til the end of the month

book discount color guide:

5% - yellow sticker
10% - violet sticker
30% - blue sticker
40% - red sticker

20% - on books without stickers
50% - on bargain books area

lena baker

"pardon for maid executed in 1945"

As Baker sat in the electric chair on March 5 1945, she said: "I am ready to meet my God." Moments earlier she had said: "What I done, I did in self-defence or I would have been killed myself. Where I was, I could not overcome it."

in limbo

i bought myself an umbrella last friday.
top ten things i always lose because i misplaced them.

1. pens
2. hankies
3. diskettes
4. umbrellas
5. books
6. slippers
7. socks
8. coins
9. receipts
10. jackets

aceh

it's happy news that GAM and the indonesian government had reached a peace agreement. i hope it would last this time, and if it does, i pray that the island be spared the fate of east timor after the 1999 referendum.

make poverty history

if you missed it the first time, here's click! and the other videos watch these now.

st. ives

friday na, di pa ako nakakain ng munggo.

pero palabas pa rin ang CRASH. pwede pa humabol ang di pa nakakapanood.

balik na ako sa national center, mula tuesday ng hapon eh sa eurotel ako nagtrabaho, ginawa kong office ang rm. 525 na me view sa farmer's plaza na inuulan ng tatlong araw.

me natutunan akong masarap gawin, magshower na nakahiga sa bathtub. actually kwela rin na nakalubog sa bathtub tapos nakabukas yong shower.

channel 100 ang asian adult channel sa eurotel, channel 106 naman ang american/ european. yong channel 100 eh naka-connect sa PC kasi me cursor pa. minsan kapag tamad yong operator eh nakaminimize yong screen at makikita mo pa ang desktop screen.


me libre na namang live jazz mamaya, mishka adams and the blue echoes uli. pero sa gateway naman, hehe kaya libre pala kapag tumambay ka lang na nakatayo, mapapa-gastos ka din kapag gusto mong umupo kasi sa cafe havana o sa italiani's ka uupo. sayang yong aug 27 cookie chua with infinity, demet, me kasabay na prosecution conference sa ilo-ilo.

meron ding screening sa bukas ng hapon ng willy wonka and the chocolate factory, yong naunang version na si gene wilder ang gumanap ng willy wonka.

yong DEKALOG ni kryzstof kieslowksi ay palabas pa rin sa sm megamall. 10 storya na base sa ten commandments na ginawa ng direktor ng bleu, blanc at rouge. bale 5 films na me tig 2 storya.

wish ko lang makapanood ako eh hanggang leeg ko ang kelangan ko pang isulat na trabaho. hintayin ko na lang lumabas kopya sa quiapo. mamaya maghahanap ako ng munggo.

thank god it's munggo

naghanap ako ng munggo kanina sa turo-turo na katabi ng 7-11 malapit sa lrt 2 station sa cubao, sa kanto ng st. mary at aurora na kapag gabi ay sangkatutak na babae ang nakatambay na iaalok sa akin ng kanilang bugaw, na madalas ay matandang babae, bakla o babaeng tomboy ang itsura, "chicks sir?" "kuha ka ng babae?" "sir ilan?", marunong din sila dahil kadalasan akong maalok kapag galing ako sa atm ng bpi na katabi ng 7-11, sigurado nga namang me pambayad ang bagong withdraw don, minsan naringgan namin ni cheryl magsigawan yong mga bugaw ng "hoy dito na yan, tatlo ang kelangan dito!" "ah hinde, nauna na dito", kahit nga iyong turo-turo na sinasabi ko eh inuman talaga yon na nagtitinda lang ng ulam kapag tanghali, pagkatapos non eh patuloy ang pagiging inuman niya na me bidyoke, na me mga babaeng pan-table, hindi ko pa nakitang magsara yong puwestuhan na iyon, gabi, madaling araw, umaga at hapon bukas siya, hindi nawawalan ng customer na naghahanap ng ka-table, napansin ko din na mga kuwarto kuwarto pala ang itaas ng lugar na iyon kapag tumingala ka sa labas, kamot din ako ng ulo ko na bakit matagal kong inisip na apartment ang asa bandang taas ng maliit na building na iyon, syempre kwarto kwarto, bakit ko inisip na pang-table lang ang ka-table, kapag gabi me manang don na me isawan, na kapag maaga aga pa eh yong mga babaeng nakatambay sa kalye at pang-table na wala pang ka-table ang kumakain ng mga binabarbekyu niya, kapag bandang hating-gabi na ay hapo nang nakakatulog si manang na nakasandal sa pader na hawak ang pamaypay niya para sa isawang uling na unti unti nang namamatay sa pagmadaling araw.

bakit kaya biyernes nagluluto ng munggo ang mga turo-turo at karinderya?

CRASH

i got this in the e-mail last thursday:

"CRASH" Excellent film.
No further explanation needed.
In cinemas now.

NIZA

i saw it last night, and i so very much agree, if you are to watch only one film until the end of this year, let it be CRASH.

happy birthday....

...richiekins!!!

war of the skies

i saw mishka adams and her band sa bistro 70s two tuesdays ago, galeng. jazz na pala ang tuesdays ng bistro. we should count our blessings pagdating sa accessibility ng world class music acts sa atin. for P150 pesos pwede ka nang makarinig ng live jazz, sus me consumable amount pa para sa pagkain.

ang mahal kaya ng kelangang ibayad sa north america at europe para makarining ng kasing calibre ng the jerks. eh dito P100 entrance lang. ganun din dati nung pinanood ko ang lampano alley, shites, ang mahal kaya pumasok sa blues bars sa ibang bansa.

another thing that we should be thankful for - the price of beer. magkano lang dito sa mga pwestuhan, P35 ang pale, kahit light. eh sa bangkok nga 90-150 baht ang isang bote ng beer. at...AT san miguel pa ang beer natin!!

galing ng live jazz, demet. to the uninitiated: what the musicians do is go through the regular rendition of the song and then lalarga na sila isa-isa sa pag improvise, halos di mo na makikilala ang song pero yon pa rin yon, parang platform lang yong song para lumipad sila, and then after nilang pumunta kung saan saan they all go back to the song. clap clap clap!!! whew.

outrage!

i usually don't do this in my blog but i think you may be interested in reading this urgent action from AI:

IRAN EXECUTES GAY TEENAGERS

Two gay teenagers were publicly executed in Iran on 19 July 2005 for the 'crime' of homosexuality The youths were hanged in Edalat (Justice) Square in the city of Mashhad, in north east Iran. They were sentenced to death by Court No.19. Iran enforces Islamic Sharia law, which dictates the death penalty for gay sex. Shocking photos of the execution are at the links below

http://www.outrage.org.uk/imagezoom.asp?file=37 http://www.outrage.org.uk/imagezoom.asp?file=38 http://www.outrage.org.uk/imagezoom.asp?file=39

One youth was aged 18 and the other was a minor under the age of 18. They were only identified by their initials, M.A. and A.M.

They admitted to having gay sex (probably under torture) but claimed in their defence that most young boys had sex with each other and that they were not aware that homosexuality was punishable by death.

Prior to their execution, the teenagers were held in prison for 14 months and severely beaten with 228 lashes. Their length of detention suggests that they committed the so-called offences more than a year earlier, when they were possibly around the age of 16. Ruhollah Rezazadeh, the lawyer of the youngest boy (under 18), had appealed that he was too young to be executed and that the court should take into account his tender age (believed to be 16 or 17). But the Supreme Court in Tehran ordered him to be hanged. Under the Iranian penal code, girls as young as nine and boys as young as 15 can be hanged.

Three other young gay Iranians are being hunted by the police, but they have gone into hiding and cannot be found. If caught, they will also face execution. News of the two executions was reported by ISNA (Iranian Students News Agency) on 19 July. A later news story by Iran In Focus, allegedly based on this original ISNA report, claimed the youths were executed for sexually assaulting a 13 year old boy. But the ISNA report does not mention any sexual assault. A report of the executions on the website of the respected democratic opposition movement, The National Council of Resistance Of Iran, also makes no reference to a sexual assault.

The allegation of sexual assault may either be a trumped up charge to undermine public sympathy for the youths (a frequent tactic by the Islamist regime in Iran). Or it may be that the 13 year old was a willing participant but that Iranian law (like UK law) deems that no person of that age is capable of sexual consent and that therefore any sexual contact is automatically deemed in law to be a sex assault. If the 13 year old was sexually assaulted, why was he not identified and also put on trial (under Iranian law both the victims and perpetrators of sexual crimes are punished)?

"This is just the latest barbarity by the Islamo-fascists in Iran" said Peter Tatchell of the London-based gay human rights group OutRage! "The entire country is a gigantic prison, with Islamic rule sustained by detention without trial, torture and state-sanctioned murder. "

According to Iranian human rights campaigners, over 4,000 lesbians and gay men have been executed since the Ayatollahs seized power in 1979. "Altogether, an estimated 100,000 Iranians have been put to death over the last 26 years of clerical rule. The victims include women who have sex outside of marriage and political opponents of the Islamist government. "Last August, a 16 year old girl, Atefeh Rajabi, was hanged for 'acts incompatible with chasity.' "

Britain's Labour government is pursuing friendly relations with this murderous regime, including aid and trade. We urge the international community to treat Iran as a pariah state, break off diplomatic relations, impose trade sanctions and give practical support to the democratic and left opposition inside Iran," said Mr Tatchell.

Protest to the Iranian Ambassador: info@iran-embassy.org.uk Tel: 020 7225 3000 Fax: 020 7589 4440 Iranian Ambassador Embassy of Iran 16 Prince?s Gate London SW7 1PT If you live outside the UK, protest to the Iranian Embassy in your country, and press your government to break off diplomatic relations and impose trade sanctions against Iran. Email this news release and photos to your friends. Urge them to protest.

songer-guitarers

galeng kagabi, enjoy ako na nag-gitara si k-anne, kumanta si che at gumitara't kumanta si dburns.

sona

sona mob na naman, tulad nung nakaraang taon, next year uli, kitakits na lang.

hard core poetry

coming back from nepal, i kept thinking if i gave a satisfactory answer to why human rights organizations in the philippines do not document human rights violations by both government and the maoists.

at first i could not understand why they had a problem with the 'mouse' in nepal until i got accustomed with how english sounded there. but i digress, i still want to know if i am still enamored with 'the revolution' to think that we have better maoists here, real genuine true blue maoists in fact, serve-the-people-never-take-a-single-strand-of-thread-from-the-masses maoists.

or maybe i just need to think that way of my dad.

when i was still in pre-school he used to have these bulky eight track cartridges that he played in the living room on a car stereo connected to what i remember to be turntable speakers. we lived in the visayas then, when he still worked as a medical detailman (now called med reps) for united laboratories.

i would know dad was home when chicago's colour my world would drip from the make-shift stereo system to wherever i was playing in what seemed as an endless stream of houses we moved in and out of then. i get vague recollections of distant corridors, hazy rooms, stuffy closets, forgotten hiding places and sepia toned playgrounds whenever daniel is leaving at night on a plane and the red tail lights are heading for spain and one can see him waving goodbye.

coming back from nepal, and thinking about the end of relationships, my friends' and mine, my dad's eight track stereo again comes to mind. i didn't know emily dickinson then nor read robert frost, but it sang to me then...and I only kiss your shadow, i cannot feel your hand, you're a stranger now unto me...lost in the dangling conversation, and the superficial sighs, in the borders of our lives.

the maoists ain't so bad if they have people with so much music in their hearts. to my dad who would now like to encircle the cities from the countryside i hum hardcore poetry.

'coz there's music in the city
if your ear is to the ground
only non-believers never hear a single sound
this is a song not necessarily sweet
i pass it on to folks i never will meet
and if my words don't make history
just call it hard core poetry

xty at dburns

kathmandu you

i'll be in nepal on sunday. this is what the lonely planet has to say about the place:

Warning

Nepal has plunged into a constitutional crisis following the dissolution of the Nepalese government by King Gyanendra. Long-standing tensions between government forces loyal to the King and Maoist rebels have resulted in sporadic violence across the country.

While the safety of travellers isn't directly under threat, the tense environment could deteriorate rapidly and leave visitors stranded. A recent state of emergency saw the King invoke eergency powers including complete censorship of the media and the suspension of civil rights. Some travel advisories are urging travellers to avoid going to Nepal until the political situation is resolved, however, tourist numbers are on the rise.

A Maoist 'people's war' was declared in 1996 in response to government corruption. A ceasefire temporarily halted hostilities, but negotiations faltered and on August 27, 2003, the ceasefire was called off. Bombings, including several on the same day, have hit Kathmandu and the surrounding valley.Maoists have threatened tourist facilities throughout Nepal, and Maoist leader Baburam Bhattarai warned travellers that they could be 'caught in the crossfire of the contending armies', while perversely encouraging them to visit anyway. Travellers to Nepal are urged to remain vigilant, keep a low profile and avoid demonstrations.

Check travel advisories for possible bandhs (strikes) that may be called at short notice. If a bandh is called, do not travel during it and keep an extra low profile until it is over.

Official curfews can be declared at short notice, in the capital and towns throughout the Kathmandu valley. Soldiers loyal to the King have the authority to shoot those disobeying curfew. Army and police checkpoints can make travel slow, and there are reports that rebels threatening violence - and bandits posing as rebels using actual violence - are sporadically targeting travellers for revenue-raising purposes. The districts of Banke, Dang, Syangja, Surkhet, Rukum, Kalikot, Jajarkot, Rolpa, Salyan and Gorkha are considered especially dangerous.

spank it!

what you could do for peace.
what you could do with your phone.
what to do at home.
what they do.
what to call what you do girl.
what to call what you do man.
what you do could kill you.

sorry

when i was still small, i thought i was a kind kid. now i remember throwing sand at the face of this new kid who tried to talk to me while i was making sand castles in a playground sandlot in one of the thousand places we lived in that time.

whoever you were, wide eyed kid with straight hair and a kind face, i'm very very sorry.

monkey versus penguin

just thought you'd like to see the screen saver of my phone, voila! penguin didn't stand a chance, tsk tsk tsk.

sige pakasal ka

just the other day i read sa amnesty international egroup newsletter that canada became the 3rd country to allow same sex marriages. great news, but still, nagulat ako that canada was still just the 3rd pa lang after netherlands and belgium.

isip ko ang bagal naman ng gulong ng sibilisasyon, tapos this morning nabasa ko as inquirer "Spain's parliament approves gay marriage". i went like...ha? hanep! spain? ang nagdala ng katolisismo sa pilipinas? asteeg!!

kumusta kay san pedro

this day last year, napaisip akong kwelang habang unti-unti na akong nalulunod at kumakaway ng saklolo eh nakangiting kinakawayan naman ako ng mga kasamahan ko na akala ay enjoy na enjoy ako sa paglubog-ahon sa tubig dagat sa baliangao. isip ko eh, so ganito pala ako mamamatay, na masaya silang kumakaway sa akin.

itong buwan na ito, two years ago ay nakasama ko si girlie sa isang DAR consultation sa cagayan de oro, kasama niya nanay niya na ipinasyal namin sa nakakahingal na eco-park something sa cagayan. di ko na nakita uli si nanay after that dahil nauna na siya pagkatapos siyang masabit ng school bus nitong simula ng 2005.

naging sunod-sunod na ang mga namatayan - tatay ni salome, nanay ni misty, tatay ni atty. bombi, lolo ni daniel, lola ni idak at ang tatay ni jerome. balak sana umuwi ni jerome sa ipil nuong pagkatapos ng training sa dumaguete kaso pumalpak yong kwentada sa budget kaya di siya nakasama sa dumaguete. kaya nuong nakauwi siya eh libing na ni tatay.

me pambawi naman, dahil ilang oras pagbalik niya ng maynila ay nanganak naman finally ang asawa niyang super-overdue na. suspense agad dahil ayaw umiyak ng bata kaya bitbit kaagad ni jerome ang baby habang angkas sa likod ng scooter papunta sa bahay ng kumadrona dahil di nadala ang gamit na kailangan para sa ganoong sitwasyon. umiyak naman, kaya kasama na natin ang pangatlong maria ni jerome na si jea anacleta (from lolo anacleto)!



meron ding mga kasama pa natin pero muntik muntik na, tatay ni xty na isinugod sa ospital (halos kasabay nuong asa ospital tatay ni bombi), si cheryl na nakipag kead-on collission sa truck ang bus na sinasakyan, si castor na binaril ng mga would be assassins na style DDS sa tacloban, at si max na asa heart center pa rin ngayon.

muntik na rin ako uli - at si ayi at kai at len at ina at lisa at jonal at iba pang pasahero - nuong pasko ng pagkabuhay, nuong muntik sumadsad sa dagat sa pagkakabiglang liko ng sinasakyan naming 'boat' galing marinduque.

pero ngayon, eto pa rin, isang taon na nga ang blog, at gumawa pa ng bago.
sige, hanggang sa sunod na taon uli.

accidental photoblogger

there's a whole lotta bloggin goin on sa national office! everybody's waiting for the latest post sa ratatitat journals as well as nag-aabang kung anong klaseng blog kaya ang mangyayari sa blog!...aray! and makatang lito.

dahil dito, i made a new blog! the accidental photoblogger, no long posts, only pics, check it out sa ikabodikpics.blogspot.com.

oh....spurs....woohoooo! spurs!

hokey, this is so me, kung sino kakampihan ko e yon ang matatalo. kung sino gusto kong maging masaya eh siya'ng olats sa huli.

oh well, kung isang serye naman titingnan ang finals eh outscored ng pistons ang spurs ng 607 - 594. nagawa nilang dalhin sa game 7 ang spurs kahit natalo na sila sa unang 2 games. tinambakan pa nila spurs ng 102-71 sa game 4. in the process ay gumawa pa pistons ng nba finals record sa lowest turnovers na 4 at pinakitang hindi invincible ang spurs sa homecourt nila kahit na game 6 pa. kahit hindi sila nanalo mas devastating yong mga losses na ginawa nila sa spurs.

love ko ang pistons!

the finals

with only a few hours to go, napagkaisahan ko na - GO PISTONS GO!!!!! WOOHOOOHOOOOO!!!!!

irreversible

bakasyon!


i’ve been back sa office for two days na, i wish i could get back to work na rin. sabi ni richie mga 3 days pagbalik sa aming bakasyon before she did anything really productive. eh bumalik siya ng mas maaga kesa sa akin, so siguro mga one week pa akong spaced out.

richie, che and i had our vacation leaves together, magkakasama kami sa dumaguete, apo island, siquijor, ozamis at cagayan de oro.

sarap buhay kahit ubos pera. sulit yong salary loan ni richie. 11 days na walang palya sa red horse at strong ice. nakainom pa si richie ng tuba sa siquijor at tumungga ng red horse sa laot ng ozamis sa hating-gabi. nakapag-snorkel pa siya sa marine sanctuary ng apo island, asteeg.

funny iyong time na nakasama namin si rommel y at idak sa coco amigos sa dumaguete, lahat pala kami eh nakatanggap mula sa aming mga karelasyon o naka-relasyon, ng iba’t-ibang versions ng “masaya ka diyan habang andito ako nalulungkot” or “andami mo nang napupuntahang hindi ako kasama na nag-e-enjoy ka” hehe.

comic relief para sa amin na we all share the same fate pala. ang isa pang nakakatawa eh yong different versions ng “pag-isipan mong maigi kung bakit galit ako sa iyo, pag-isipan mo!”

kaya ayon, halos autistic na si idak sa kate-text. si rommel y naman ang unang nagkaron ng long and dramatic phone call, then ako na tatlong mahahabang installments, tapos si Cheryl na me matching hagulgulan pa sa kakalyehan ng dumaguete. si richie naman eh nakataas parati ang kilay at ilong sa naka-ambang “mag-usap tayo pagbalik mo ng maynila”.

pagbalik maynila eh wala naman palang pag-uusapan sila richie at i, pinapatapon lang yong picture namin ni richie sa silliman farm na magkayakap kami sa higaan. sabi ni cheryl nag-text na raw si gordie na pagkatapos ng ilang buwan ay finally tanggap na raw niyang hiwalay na sila. ok na rin kami ni len, kasi nagdesisyon kaming friends pala kami kesa mag-asawa o magkarelasyon. si rommel y eh inaway daw ni apple habang nakikipag-inuman siya sa isang matandang babae sa boracay at hanggang kahapon ay di pa sila nagkikita. sabi ni richie pagkatapos daw ipakita kay erwin ang mga pictures namin kasama si idak ay nagsabi lang daw ito ng “nag-enjoy talaga kayo doon ano?”

PRINT LANG !!! MAG-PRINT LANG !!!! PUTANG AMA MAG-PRINT LANG AYAW PA!!! NAPAKASIMPLE LANG NAMAN NG GUSTO KO, MAG-PRINT LANG!!!!!! ANAK NG PUTANG AMA!!!!

peter benenson: amnesty international founder

"The candle burns not for us, but for all those whom we failed to rescue from prisons, who were shot on the way to prison, who were tortured, who were kidnapped, who ‘disappeared’. That’s what the candle is for."

peter benenson
july 1921 - feb 2005

sibuyas

sabi ni jorge grade 5, si jazz grade 4 daw, si vivian grade 3 naman... sina arlene at janet janet eh hindi na maalala kung kelan kami nagkaroon ng subject na philippine history sa elementary.

nooon kasing sabado ay napadaan ang bus na sinasakyan ko sa south super hiway at hinayaan ko na ring maging laman ng aking isipan ang pagkawala na ng dating magallanes theater doon.

naalala ko na doon ako dinala ng tatay ko para manood ng fiddler on the roof isang araw sa isa sa mga bakasyon noong elementarya. pagkatapos ng 'sunrise...sunset' eh pumunta kami sa katabing tropical hut at pinanood niya akong kumain ng hamburger.

tagal na yon, super noon pa. kasing tagal ng panahon nang panoorin namin ang star wars sa state theater sa avenida bago pa dumaan dito ang LRT, at kasing super noon nuong kumain kami sa sinaunang jolibee sa sta. cruz bago pa ito na-langhap sarap.

di naman kami iyong pamilyang malimit kumain sa labas, wala nga akong maalalang ganon, naaalala ko lang iyong ilang beses na magkasama kaming kumakain ng tatay ko sa kung saan, tulad ng pata tim sa restawrang intsik sa chinatown na kahit putik putikan ang pagpasok sa first floor eh biglang maayos at aircon pala ang pangalawang palapag.

naalala ko na inalis ko noon yong malaking onion rings sa hamburger ng tropical hut at naging hudyat ito para sa isang mahabang lektyur mula sa tatay ko tungkol sa kasaysayan ng pilipinas na sinimulan sa puntong dahil sa mga spices kaya naligaw dito ang mga kastila at kaya ganon ang pangalan ng sinehan na pinang-galingan namin.

pero introduction lang din pala ang lektyur na iyon sa gusto niyang mangyari na magsimula na akong magbasa ng mga textbooks na gagamitin sa susunod na pasukan lalo na ang red at blue na libro ni zaide.

kaya ko ngayon pilit inaalala kung kailan nagkaroon ng philippine history sa PCU elementary dahil ang pagkaka-tanda ko ay hindi ko nagamit ang textbook na iyon dahil iyon iyong panahon na nag-magic na lang at sa St. Paul Aparri na ako bigla nag-Grade 5 bago bumalik sa normal at nag-Grade 6 na uli ako sa PCU.

kaya haha, bale wala lektyur niya tungkol sa history, pero mahilig naman ako sa sibuyas hanggang ngayon.

remember me in paradise! 

kakai morion 

little morion 

belayi! 

arabella kate practising her grip. 

last month i thought of...

fish

...it's amazing how they know what school they belong to, who to mate with, and how they know what kind they are.

janitor fish

...giant ones that sucked other species off the marikina river and dredged up the soil in its banks. exactly what i nauseously imagined last christmas while i watched our godlfish being sucked to death by a finger sized janitor that attached itself to the goldfish-head with its filthy suckerlips.

pine needles

...a nun in habit pointed out to me that they always come in bunches of three, i picked some from the ground of the pine tree hill we were on and marveled at that truth scattered around my feet.

jesus, jose rizal, jimi hendrix, janis joplin and jim morrison

...i am now older than any of them had been.

quick summer cooler

...juice 1 lemon, grate one medium sized carrot and then one apple. combine all three, chill and enjoy.

gatorade bottles

...that i would fill up with five peso coins.

ray charles

...i remember an acquaintance from late 80s concerts who told me then that his girlfriend broke off with him because he only had money for one ticket for the back to back concert of ray charles and b.b. king at the ccp and still went ahead to buy the ticket and watched it without her.

women's day

...and the post about women that i couldn't even begin to write.

the big bang

...if everything in the universe came from the same primal matter and we are all stardust, this might explain why we love the people we love and are friends with, because some of us must have come from the same chunk of that star and somehow found ourselves together again. it's how fish know.

ayi's birthday

...bata pa rin ang thirteen di ba? ayon sa convention the rights of the child eh hanggang 18 pa.

...di pa naman matanda ang me anak na teenager di ba? ayon sa mga aktibista hanggang 35 eh youth pa rin, halos me dalawang taon pa ako. magkabilang pala kami pareho ni ayi na nasa youth sector, mabuhay ang kabataan!

...habertdey ayi!!

favorite unintentional joke of the week

"john doe na naman! sino ba itong john doe, serial killer?"

-asked by my office roomie who will now and forever be called jane doe

white hair

may uban na ako.

di ko napansin agad, dahil iisa lang siyang strand ng uban, at dahil hindi naman siya sa ulo ko tumubo.

na nakakapagtaka, dahil mas una naman akong nagkabuhok sa ulo ko. sabagay me ulo din dun, at siguro nga sign of wisdom ang uban, kaya doon siya tumubo.

brief thief

me nagnakaw ng mga brief ko.

nalaman ko kahapon ng kunin ni che ang pinalabhan ko sa laundryshop sa davao. pinasok ng magnanakaw ang shop at kumuha ng kung anu-anong damit sa ibang mga labada. winakwak din ang nakasupot nang mga pinalabhan ko at kinuha ang lahat ng aking brief at panyo at isang pambahay na shirt. hindi kinuha ang pantalon o panlakad na shirts ko, hindi rin kumuha ng mga brief sa labada ng ibang tao. kahit sa may-ari ng shop ay palaisipan din kung bakit pinuntirya ang aking mga brief.

nuong last akong nagpalaba sa isa pang laudry shop nuong disyembre sa davao ay isinupot naman ang dalawa kong pantalon sa laundry ng iba!

talagang oras na nga siguro na nalipat na ako ng trabaho uli sa maynila kahapon at medyo weird na ang mga nangyayari sa akin sa mindanaw. napuntahan ko na yong CIDG at ako pa ang nagpumilit sa imbestigador na piktyur ko nga yong nasa case file nila sa murder ni rashsid manahan at pwede na nila akong imbestigahan. ayaw maniwalang ako yon dahil ang guwapo ko daw (eherm! ubo-ubo!) at di naman daw ako kailangang interbyuhin pa.

nagbago na rin ihip ng hangin mula ng huli king post. hindi nawala ang wallet ko, magaling lang pala akong magtago talaga para di makita ang wallet ko ng bad pipol. tinanggap na rin ng board ng TFD na malipat ako ng maynila (clap clap clap).

bago ako umalis ng mindanaw ay nagpagupit na ako, pero mukha pa rin akong sisiw ng balut. nabili ko na ang x-men danger room battle archives at sinamahan ko na rin ng origin of generation next: tales of the phalanx covenant para kay aying. nakakain ako ng chicken siopaw pero di na nakapag crispy hito at isol dahil late na kong nakapunta sa madayaw kaya chix bbq na lang inorder ko.

tumaya na rin ako sa megalotto at super lotto kahit na hindi ako tumama. bago natapos ang enero ay nakapag-thai massage ako, 1hour body, 30 min foot. sarap buhay.

10 kilos excess weight ng baggage ko at me naiwan pa akong mga gamit sa dabaw. kwela talaga kapag boarding na ng eroplano, andami talagang di marunong sumunod sa procedures kahit pinaulit-ulit na ito sa PA ng ingles at tagalog. nag-uunahan makapasok sa gate eh hindi naman sila mauubusan ng upuan, at kahit na mauna silang makaupo sa eroplano eh sabay-sabay naman kaming aalis.

kahit na ano pang announcement na i-off na ang cellphones ay sige pa rin ang text at tawag na para bang huling pagkakataon na iyon na makontak kung sinong kinokontak eh isa't kalahating oras lang naman silang mawawalan ng signal. pagka lapag ng eroplano ganon din, parang me contest ng kung sino unang makakapag text.

kwela rin na kahit nagta-taxi pa ang plane sa runway ay may mga tumatayo nang pasahero at mag-uunahan na pumila pababa kahit sarado pa ang pinto ng plane. hindi ko ito maintindihan, una dahil hindi naman sasabog ang eroplano, pangalawa ay hindi ka naman paglilinisin kapag ikaw ang nahuling bumaba. bukod don ay halos karamihan ng nag-uunahan bumaba ay maghihintay din lang naman sa baggage area sa terminal kaya bale walang mauna ka dahil maaabutan ka rin ng lahat don at di mo naman sigurado na gamit mo ang unang lalabas.

habang hinihintay ko yong bagahe ko ay inisip kong nakakatawa kung biglang lumabas sa conveyor belt ang mga brief kong ninakaw hahaha! pero hindi, malamang ay suot na yon ng magnanakaw ng brief ng iba.

a letter to myself

hi ikabod,

you look good today, although you really need a haircut na. i know maikli pa rin hair mo pero mukha ka nang sisiw ng balut, other than that you look good today ikabod.

itutuloy mo pa ba ang pagtaya sa lotto? hindi mo pa ba tanggap na malas kang tao? eh di mo pa nasusubukan swerte mo ay nawalan ka na naman ng wallet last saturday, the second in just eight months, mwahaha! pakaskas mo na balat mo sa pwet!

at di lang sa pera, pati caritas card mo na kasasabi lang ng bwiset na taga caritas clinic two weeks ago na sa pebrero ka na magpa check-up kasi sa january 30 pa validity nito ay di na umabot ng katapusan! siyam na araw na lang nawala pa!!

pero ok lang yan di ba? shit happens.... mas madalas lang sa yo.

tulad ng kahit anong pag-sigurado mo wala kang maiwan sa flight mo galing manila eh di mo pa rin nadala yong vcd ng my sassy girl na pamasko ni che galing kay schasa.... at kahit na isang araw nyong ginalugad ni len ang lahat ng boticang intsik sa binondo para sa golden dragon oil na bilin sa yo ng tatay mo eh tatanga-tanga kang nag-akalang nasa bag mo lang yon hanggang ma-text ka ni len na nasa ilalim pala ng kumot sa kama sa bahay nyo.

ngayon eh asa bus na pala tatay mo pa-davao bago mo na text na ikansel na byahe niya dahil wala yong dragon oil, kaya maghihintay pa rin sa yo yon don kahit para sa sinturon mo na lang na maganda daw sa bundok. bukas pupunta ka pa sa cidg davao kasi inaalam daw ng imbestigador sa pagpatay kay rashid kung sino yong nasa picture nila na me hawak na megaphone sa indignation rally dati laban sa mga salvagings sa davao, eh ikaw iyon!

kagabi naman ay may balita na baka mapurnada pa ang request mo nang transfer ng trabaho pabalik manila ng february 1 after nyong magpaalaman ng mga kasamahan mo sa mindanaw.

oh if only you could kick yourself in the head... buti na lang bata ka pa ay nabasa mo na yong "life is never that bad that it could not get any worse" at parati kang nasasabihan ng tatay mo nang "who ever said that life is fair?"

well.... buti di ka masyadong maramdamin at pwede nang pambawi sa malas at kabwisitan ang mga bagay tulad ng pag-iskor ng i stand alone na piratang dvd sa palengke ng valencia at puto maya sa umaga.

di pa rin tapos birthday mo, mhel just greeted you sa ym kanina ay pagbalik mo ng manila you'll still celebrate with ayi kasi binulutong siya when you had your bday in manila. nagpost pa si richie sa blog niya para sa kaarawan mo (bukod sa shirt na bigay nila ni i) , at napagsama-sama mo pa ang matagal nang di nagkikitang aying, malou, jonal, lisa at zeena sa muang thai for dinner with you and len. tapos till now thrilled happy ka pa rin sa greeting ni len na "thanks for being born during my lifetime" kahit na di mo nailigpit ang card na binigay niya.

huwag ka na lang muna siguro magligpit ng gamit habang di pa tapos bot meeting tungkol sa transfer mo sa manila para di ka mamatay sa alaska... labs ka naman ng mga tao mapa-minda ka o manila, ganon din sa mga taong hates ka, kahit san ka magpunta eh hate ka nila. ang original namang usapan ninyo ni len ay december pa kaya ok lang. wag ka lang sigurong pakalat-kalat sa davao dahil me picture ka na sa cidg at 32 na ang napatay ng davao death squad for this year, at january pa lang ha!

jeez, wala bang epekto ang mga protesta ninyo sa summary executions? don sa poll ng bbc sa 21,000 na tao sa 21 countries kung ang re-election ni george w ay better ba sa security ng mundo, kasama ang pilipinas ng poland at india sa only countries na positibo ang tingin kay george w, hindi ba medyo sampal yon sa lahat ng anti-war campaigns at peace education efforts at anti imperialist propaganda na ginawa ng buong progressive movement sa pilipinas? hawhawhawhaw!!!

di ka ba napapagod? meron na ngang tumatanggi sa serbisyo nyo hehe. tapos ang laki laki pa ng expectation sa inyong mga human rights-human rights, kelangan gender sensitive, religious, dapat tree hugger, kabisado ang universal declaration of human rights, nagliliquidate ng cash advances on time kung hindi ay magkakasala sa taongbayan, dapat malinaw magsalita, dapat huwarang mga magulang at mga anak, kelangan mabait, hindi nagmumura, hindi malibog, hindi naglalasing, hindi nagtsi-tsinelas....

ooops sowry... sige good thoughts... good thoughts..... ah......

matuloy ka sa maynila o hindi ay kumain ka ng chicken siopaw sa davao, wala sa maynila niyan. magpa thai massage ka sa tanton, foot tsaka body. bilhin mo na yong x-men special na danger room battle archives na P160 lang sa gaisano valencia. kain ka ng crispy hito sa madayaw at order ka na rin ng isol. kung mapupunta ka ng cotabato ay sige mag papaitan ka.

sabihin mo kay kahlil na alam mong siya ang pinakama-bait na bata sa buong mundo.

sabihin mo kay ayi na ngayon pa lang she's already this great person that you've always known she will be.

text mo na rin nanay mo na mahal mo siya kahit na di ka titira sa kanya. sabihan mo tatay mo pag nagkita kayo mamata na mag-ingat parati, matanda na e pasaway pa. text mo mga utol mo kung kumusta buhay.

tanong mo kay richie kung ano ibig sabihin ng maangas, sabihan mo si sascha na ngumiti sa pag-itan ng pagiging maramdamin. paalam mo kay misty na gusto ni aying na masaya siya kasi good person siya. sabihan mo na rin si chit na mag-ingat sa canada, malamig don. good luck na rin kamo kay bingboy. ipatago mo na rin muna ang credit card ni jerome at baka magkabaun-baon sa utang yon. sabihan mo si christy na huwag niyang pakawalan si daburns. mag-happy birthday ka pala kay au sa 29. (kamo sa iba wish mo lang na di sila matampuhin kung di mo maisulat pangalan nila)

sabihan mo si rita na huwag magtagal masyado sa office at kumustuahin mo sila ni clau. wish mo si idak na magka-syota na ulit. itext mo si daniel na huwag kalimutang mag-ingat at bumili ng pasalubong galing india. sabihin mo kay det na ikumusta ka kila noel, kuya, baby, kay nanay at tatay, sa mga utol niya, kay tiyo at tiya, kina el-el, em-em at gigi (?). pasalamat ka rin kay cheryl na nagbigay sa yo ng semblance ng home sa gitna ng kabundukan ng mindanaw. text mo si danilo na kitakits na lang whenever.

text mo yong mga kaklase mo nuong elementary at high school, makipagkita ka uli sa kanila.

sige gawin mo yan, tapos taya ka sa lotto, baka manalo ka.

at magpagupit ka na rin.

i labya majora, iks

cumpleanos

"...it's a holiday 'coz it's my birthday,
it's a holiday i won't be home today,
it's a holiday 'coz it's my birthday today!"

paboritong linya sa metro manila filmfest

Pasensya ka na, hindi makabayan ang ari ko!" sabi ni inyang kay binyang sa aishite imasu.

tatlo ang pinanood ko sa mmfilmfest, itong aishite imasu ang pinaka matino. nanalo si dennis trillo ng best supporting actor para sa role niya na inyang, eh sino pala ang lead actor sa aishite imasu, si raymart? HA? eh kahit kay juday ay mas mukhang lead actress pa si dennis!

maganda din iyong sigaw, dahil may nakakuha na rin ng ideya na hindi lamang hollywood style horror films ang patok sa pinoy kundi pati ang mga katulad ng ju-on at ringgu na galing asya at los otros o the others na si alejandro amenabar ng espanya ang nag-direct.

yong panaghoy sa suba ay maganda dahil binisaya ang salita, labas doon ay wala ng maganda pa sa pelikulang yon. hindi ba nakakaloka na best film ang mano po 3 pero best director si cesar montano? parang - "o ikaw ang best director pero ang yong ginawa ni joel lamangan ang pinakamahusay na pelikula ha?"

maganda yong sinehan sa gateway mall cubao na pinagpanooran ko ng mga palabas sa filmfest. sayang at nalaman kong may polisiyang elitista o matapobre pala itong gateway mall.